This blog may not mean a whole lot to anyone other than myself but I feel the need to rant and get things out so this is my way to do it. Maybe people will find it entertaining, maybe not.
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This blog may not mean a whole lot to anyone other than myself but I feel the need to rant and get things out so this is my way to do it. Maybe people will find it entertaining, maybe not.
Posted by Diddy at 9:28 PM 1 comments
So, here it is years later and I finally decide to write again. You may feel free to disregard my previous posts. They are from a chapter of my life that is now closed.
Posted by Diddy at 12:19 PM 0 comments
Why is it that the good ones always go so early? I lost a friend of mine the other day. He was like my brother in highschool. We've lost touch a little bit but we still talked every now and then. I just feel like shit because i feel i should have been around more for him. In highschool we talked all the time and when he was in basic training i wrote to him faithfully 2 summers in a row. and i have every letter. i read them from time to time and remember the boy he used to be. I feel like ass because i should have spent more time with him. Lyndsey says we always think there is more time. but really, there isnt always more time. what gets me is the viewing is private so its family only. so we arent going to get our closure. its not fair to us. I miss him. :(
well, im rambling i just needed to get some stuff out. ill try to write again soon.
until next time,
let everyone close to you know how much they mean to you.
~*Diddy*~
RIP JOSHUA SETH CADLE3
Posted by Diddy at 3:49 PM 0 comments
Well, long time to write huh. I'm a little more cheerful since my last entry. haha. Lets see whats been up.
Not a whole lot really. Just workin my butt off day in and day out. Christmas is coming. Its my favorite time of year. I like it a whole lot better this year than I did the last 2 years. Im not in retail anymore and I dont have to stress out as much. I have my share of bad days but its nothing like workin at the bullseye. I have spent so much money on xmas this year...alot of money i shouldnt have spent. lol. Speaking of which, I went shopping last night and I lost one of my bags. I had a gift for steves sister and I lost the bag...gone. We've called around to see if i left it somewhere in the mall and no one turned it in. bastards. someone saw it and said oh free xmas present!! yea screw you i hope your christmas sucks. lol.
Im really struggling here. I dont know what to write about. Im working on a course for work. I have 2 lessons to go out of 9. After I finish it I have to take a final and then I will get a raise. A small one but every penny counts. Haha. Bills are kicking my ass. Car Insurance, Car Payment, Student Loans, 2 Credit Cards....Ill be glad when I can get atleast one of those cards paid off so I have one less bill to worry about. But now that I went crazy with it for Christmas its going to take awhile. HAHA.
Well, Im at work and I dont know what to write about. No one reads anyway i never get comments. I'll catch ya'll soon. If I dont write before have a Merry Christmas and a safe New Year.
Posted by Diddy at 12:07 PM 0 comments
Ya kno the last few days everyone has been asking me whats wrong. I dont seem myself. Im not cheerful....You wanna know why......forget life. im sick of it all together. I work 40+ hours a week....to barely bring in enough money to pay for my car payment and insurance. its retarded. Also, Im sick of my house. i hate that im 21 years old and still sharing a room with my mom...I cant do anything in there cuz shes always in bed. no lie. My room needs cleaned like you wouldnt believe but you kno I cant do that cuz shes in bed all freaking day. Yesterday i came home from a shitty day at work and what do ya kno she hadnt been out of bed ALL day so i couldnt even go in my room and chill cuz she was in there still sleeping. Its bullshit and i hate it. Then to top it off...my boyfriend who suposidly quit smoking a year ago was smoking again. fuck this. im done. i cant deal with it anymore. i just want to pick up and move away and forget life in altoona and everyone in it :(
later
Diddy
Posted by Diddy at 1:36 PM 0 comments
Well, I havent written in ages. I am so bad about keeping up with this thing. Its really rather stupid to keep posting because no one reads anyway.
I really havent been up to much. Just working basically. Tryin hard to make commission but so far it hasnt happend yet. Oh I bought a new car and im basically broke because of it. I love it though. Its hot. 2006 Pontiac G6 GTP. I just wish my job paid a little more because after insurance and a car payment, i basically have enough money to pay for my 2 credit cards. Student loans are coming and I think dad is going to have to help me pay those back because I'm not going to have it. Unless a miracle arises. But we'll see.
Steve got a job! A good one too. Im so excited for him. He deserves it. He will be getting benefits and everything after 60 days. Im so proud of him. And his bos said that if he goes and gets his CDL license and his pa inspection license he will be making more money. This could be it his calling and it helps me breathe a sigh of relief because I know hes the one, I know that if he can keep this job we can have a future together and nothing makes me more happy than that feeling. I love him with all my heart and I would like to shout it so loud that the world could hear.
I have been feeling a little down about myself lately. I feel like im not pretty enough. I feel fat and disgusting and im not sure why. Maybe its because my pants are getting tighter than they used to be. its because all i do is sit on my ass at work. Adam and i go on like 15 min walks everyday but i guess thats not enough.
My 21st bday is one week from today. im gettin excited. i just hope i dont puke,
well, im talkin to my baby, im gonna go. i'll try to update soon.
Until Next Time
~*Diddy*~
Posted by Diddy at 9:06 PM 0 comments
Hello folks. Its been awhile I know...but im working a shit ton and barely have time to breathe let alone post on here. But here I am.
Since my last post I attended the American Idols Live tour with my best friend mitchell. It was a pretty fun day. we met at target in the morning, picked up the rental car...which was...drum roll please...a cadillac cts. we were pimpin it out on the way to pittsburgh thats for sure. after picking up the rental we headed for pittsburgh and went to the monroeville mall. i bought a pair of jeans and an abercrombie shirt and mitch bought a pair of sunglasses that he later decided he didnt like. haha. after spending most of the day at the mall we headed for the mellon arena. we ran into some people we knew and hung out with them in line. Keep in mind i was going into this show not knowing what to expect seeing as how i never watched a show this season. but i must say the show was fantastic. David cook blew my mind. im now a fan. hes pretty much amazing and i just want to thank mitchell for inviting me. i had a blast! im not real good with the whole recap thing so if you want a play by play you may want to check out his blog. its linked on the side of my site. :)
I bought a laptop today. Its a sony vaio. i love it :) i feel i got a decent deal on it so we'll see lol. im sorry this is short but im sleepy and steve is here ;) we're gonna go chill. Catch you all soon!
until next time
~*Diddy*~
Posted by Diddy at 12:07 AM 0 comments
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