Love works in amazing ways

Sorry its been so long. I've been busy. lol. Since my last post I gave birth to our gorgeous healthy baby boy Keagyn. He was born on July 20, 2011 weighing 8lbs 5oz and he was 19 3/4 in long. I was in labor just under 12 hrs and pushed for 3 hrs and 10 min. I almost gave up because I was so tired but all of a sudden I found what it took and he came so fast after that they had to call the ER Dr because my doctor didn't make it quick enough. Thank you Dr. Baker for bringing my baby boy into this world safely! And thank you to my amazing boyfriend Randy for being by my side through the whole thing doing his best to keep me calm and pushing me to keep going and letting me know just how tough I actually am. You're amazing and I love you so much.

Keagyn is by far the best thing I have ever done in my life. I am so proud of him already. I look at him and I see a bright future and I wonder what I can do to make life the absolute best that i can for him. I haven't figured it out yet but I will make it the best that I possibly can. I have so much love for that little boy its unbelievable. I never thought it was possible to love someone so much so quickly. I knew when I was pregnant with him that I loved him but I didn't realize just how much until I saw his handsome little face and his big bright eyes looking up at me. He makes my heart melt. He really does. I am so blessed to have him in my life, and I would never want things any differently no matter how exhausted or overwhelmed I get.

Well I just wanted to drop in and update. I am going to watch my baby boy sleep for a little bit until he wakes up. Everything he does is just simply amazing to me. I will try to update again soon.

~*Until Next time*~

~*Diddy*~

^*My reason for living*^

Heartburn, Kicking and couponing!

Well its been awhile. Yeah I suck I know. Life has been super busy. Some I can talk about on here, some I will refrain.

For starters, this heartburn has been killer lately. Its very random I know but it seems no matter what I try it doesn't stop. I can feel great all day long then as soon as I lay down to go to sleep it rears its ugly head. I swear with this heartburn my son is going to come out looking like an Ape lol.

I am now in my 29th week of pregnancy. Getting there. about 10 1/2 more weeks ish to go. Keagyn is growing everyday. I can tell with the way my belly is growing and my need to eat 24/7. Today for instance...I can't get full no matter how hard I try. Its kind of annoying cuz it makes me feel like a cow but its ok cuz lil man needs it so hes strong enough for his entry into the world. Also, the subtle little wiggles in my tummy that I felt, aren't so subtle anymore. I can literally sit here and watch my entire belly move. Our new found entertainment is to put things on my belly and watch keagyn kick them. I really don't mind too much until he wiggles his way into my ribs. That is VERY uncomfortable and he seems to like them alot. Like they are his own personal jungle gym.

I could really use a normal 9-5 mon-fri job but they are so hard to come by anymore. It would make life so much easier I think. I could be a bank teller or something but I cant really deal with the couple dollar an hr pay cut I would take. I'll just stick around here in hopes that someday a new shift will open, though I will not hold my breath. That wouldn't be good for my health. lol

So, Couponing...its Randy and I's new hobby. Its fun and addicting. We learned this thanks to the new show, Extreme Couponing. We decided to give it a shot and now we are buying several sunday papers a week and printing lots of online coupons. We have had a few successful trips, such as the trips to dollar general and walgreens, buying 9 bottles of body wash, a bottle of shout, a 6 pack of paper towels and 2 tubes of toothpaste and only spending .48 between the 2 stores. Who needs drugs when you get a high off watching the price drop like that? Its fantastic. We're going to keep practicing and maybe we can be like the people on tv. lol.

Alright well, its about time for me to get out of work and I am more than ready please believe. I'll try to write again soon, and if i bored the shit out of you, Sorry :-) nite!

~*Until next time*~

Diddy

Childish BS and Cheating...seriously WTF?

Ok this is kind of random but just some shit I feel strongly about and I figured i'd write in here to get my feelings out about it.

Subject one... Childish bullshit. Please tell me what compels people to prank call someone? Especially at 3am? Thats soooo elementary school. What brought this on you ask? I got a prank call at 3am the other morning from someone (im 95% sure i know who) Saying they were "Fucked up Pamela Anderson from the altoona hospital and they are so sorry to tell me that my hiv test came back positive." First of all.."Hi this is fucked up pamela anderson" Very professional..not a hospital..for 2.. a hospital isnt going to call me at 3am to give me test results...for 3...the hospital isnt going to leave a message to leave test results because of privacy issues. This really rubbed me the wrong way. I have issues sleeping lately as it is because of this pregnant body of mine and the heartburn so when I do finally doze off i don't like interruption..so when u wake me up for something stupid, its irritating. Also, I don't live alone in my own room anymore...so not only are you waking my pregnant ass up, but you are waking Randy as well and in a few more months you will wake up my baby...and that will piss me the fuck off. Some people never grow up and its sad. You are 23 years old. its time to start. If it happens again I will prove its you and I will think about pressing charges. Just sayin. Grow. The. Fuck. Up. Thanks.

Subject Two for the evening. Cheating. For no reason in general just the subject in a whole. Why cheat? Someone always gets hurt in the end. I personally would rather be dumped than cheated on. I have been cheated on a few times. The one guy was sleeping with a friend of mine the entire time we were together, because I wouldn't give it up to him. Lame excuse. He actually got my friend pregnant then she lost the baby. Then he started hanging out with this other chick and when i confronted him about it he told me she was his cousin...yea well i didn't trust him anymore at this point so I broke it off..later come to find out he is now married and has a child with this so called cousin...yea cousin my ass. if so you are one sick bastard. I know several people who have cheated on their significant other...and I really don't think its right at all. If you are not happy with your other half anymore...end it. move on. end of story. don't drag it on until someone gets hurt because it never ends well. I just don't understand the subject at all. I would never. Its bullshit.

Anyway, now that I have vented I suppose ill go for the night. Feed back is cool btw :-)

~*Until next time*~

Diddy

stupidity

This blog may not mean a whole lot to anyone other than myself but I feel the need to rant and get things out so this is my way to do it. Maybe people will find it entertaining, maybe not.

I can't stand stupid people. Seriously, the stupidity of people anymore amazes me. People I talk to at work for instance. I often wonder to myself how they do it, or how they graduated high school for that matter, because they seem to have the intelligence level of a 1 year old. I will follow with a few examples.

Example #1: "I have a black screen on my tv and I can't figure out why." Any normal person would know why you have a black screen on your tv. The conversation goes as follows. Me: "Is the power light on the front of you cable box?" Idiot: "I don't know, how do I know that?" Me: "Well, if you walk over to your box and press the power button what happens?" Idiot: (pushes power button) "Oh I have a picture. What could have happened?" Me: "Um, you didn't turn your cable box on. If you don't you will not have a picture" Idiot: "Oh. You're such a genius. Thank you!" (click).

ok seriously, common sense would tell you that in order to get a picture you must turn your tv and cable box on. Randy's 4 year old daughter can tell you how to turn the tv and the box on for goodness sake. Seriously how do these people do it? They call me a genius because I know how to turn on a tv. I just don't understand people.

Example #2: "I can't change the channel on my remote control." My response: "If you push the channel button on the remote do any lights come on the remote" "No." My response to this is well then the remote isn't getting power." At this point usually either the batteries are in the wrong way or the batteries need changed. If we go through all this and the remote still does not work, ok I will give them the benefit of the doubt and the remote needs replaced. When you tell them to bring it into the office and swap it out you get this answer. " How am I supposed to change the channel until I get in there then?" seriously people? what did you do before there was a remote control and you actually had to get up off your over sized lazy ass and flip through channels? I can remember having to change our old tv set from the dial on the tv when I was a kid. People are so lazy these days. Its disgusting.

I don't know if I would classify this next one as a rant or an example but the last 2 days I have gotten people trying to tell me what they would like to pay for our service. Really? One guy actually told me that he is currently a customer of Dish and he would be willing to switch to our triple play if we will knock $10 off of it because to get out of his contract with dish they will charge him a $10 cancellation fee every month for the duration of the contract. Really? The price of the package is $114.99 not $104.99 dude. I don't walk into Mcdonalds and tell them I want a cheeseburger from the dollar menu and tell them I only want to pay .50 for it. It just doesn't work that way. If it did, I would negotiate prices on everything. I also had a guy insist that I didn't have to charge him an install fee. Fact of life, if a tech is coming to your house to install a service, there will be an install charge. After I told him no 3 times and that the best i could do is cut it in half...he hung up on me...then proceeded to call back and get someone else who, wait for it, also told him no...and he hung up on that person too. Once again the stupidity of people amazes me these days.

Anyway, thats about enough of that. Just a quick side not before I end this for the night, Randy and I decided on a name for our baby boy. His name is going to be Keagyn Alexzander Cassidy. But this mamma is out for the night now. I feel so much better getting all that off my chest.

Until next time

Please use common sense

~*Diddy*~

Wow

So, here it is years later and I finally decide to write again. You may feel free to disregard my previous posts. They are from a chapter of my life that is now closed.

So, since my last post, I have found true love in my amazing boyfriend Randy. I now live with him and his little girl...and guess what? We are expecting our first child together July 19th. A son. I'm 22 weeks today, and I couldn't be any more happy. I cant wait to meet the little guy. I finally started feeling him move around about 3 weeks or so ago. Every time I feel the little nudge it makes me smile. Its amazing just how much you can love someone you haven't met yet.

Speaking of the baby, I had a Dr. appt today. It went well. I found out that from last months appt to now I have gained 7lbs. Im such a fatty lol. I also found out I have to get the rogam(Sp?) shot because I am O neg blood type. yay. lol. Other than that little man is healthy.

I'm terrible at this writing thing. I'm not sure what to write about today but I just thought I would update quick. If I think of anything else I'll write again. I'll try to get back into the whole thing again. I used to be decent with it. Just gotta get back in the swing of things.

Until Next time

~*Diddy*~

Live Fast, Die Young

Why is it that the good ones always go so early? I lost a friend of mine the other day. He was like my brother in highschool. We've lost touch a little bit but we still talked every now and then. I just feel like shit because i feel i should have been around more for him. In highschool we talked all the time and when he was in basic training i wrote to him faithfully 2 summers in a row. and i have every letter. i read them from time to time and remember the boy he used to be. I feel like ass because i should have spent more time with him. Lyndsey says we always think there is more time. but really, there isnt always more time. what gets me is the viewing is private so its family only. so we arent going to get our closure. its not fair to us. I miss him. :(

well, im rambling i just needed to get some stuff out. ill try to write again soon.

until next time,
let everyone close to you know how much they mean to you.

~*Diddy*~

RIP JOSHUA SETH CADLE

Happy Holidays

Well, long time to write huh. I'm a little more cheerful since my last entry. haha. Lets see whats been up.

Not a whole lot really. Just workin my butt off day in and day out. Christmas is coming. Its my favorite time of year. I like it a whole lot better this year than I did the last 2 years. Im not in retail anymore and I dont have to stress out as much. I have my share of bad days but its nothing like workin at the bullseye. I have spent so much money on xmas this year...alot of money i shouldnt have spent. lol. Speaking of which, I went shopping last night and I lost one of my bags. I had a gift for steves sister and I lost the bag...gone. We've called around to see if i left it somewhere in the mall and no one turned it in. bastards. someone saw it and said oh free xmas present!! yea screw you i hope your christmas sucks. lol.

Im really struggling here. I dont know what to write about. Im working on a course for work. I have 2 lessons to go out of 9. After I finish it I have to take a final and then I will get a raise. A small one but every penny counts. Haha. Bills are kicking my ass. Car Insurance, Car Payment, Student Loans, 2 Credit Cards....Ill be glad when I can get atleast one of those cards paid off so I have one less bill to worry about. But now that I went crazy with it for Christmas its going to take awhile. HAHA.

Well, Im at work and I dont know what to write about. No one reads anyway i never get comments. I'll catch ya'll soon. If I dont write before have a Merry Christmas and a safe New Year.