Forget it

Ya kno the last few days everyone has been asking me whats wrong. I dont seem myself. Im not cheerful....You wanna know why......forget life. im sick of it all together. I work 40+ hours a week....to barely bring in enough money to pay for my car payment and insurance. its retarded. Also, Im sick of my house. i hate that im 21 years old and still sharing a room with my mom...I cant do anything in there cuz shes always in bed. no lie. My room needs cleaned like you wouldnt believe but you kno I cant do that cuz shes in bed all freaking day. Yesterday i came home from a shitty day at work and what do ya kno she hadnt been out of bed ALL day so i couldnt even go in my room and chill cuz she was in there still sleeping. Its bullshit and i hate it. Then to top it off...my boyfriend who suposidly quit smoking a year ago was smoking again. fuck this. im done. i cant deal with it anymore. i just want to pick up and move away and forget life in altoona and everyone in it :(

later
Diddy

Gonna party till the break of dawn

Well, I havent written in ages. I am so bad about keeping up with this thing. Its really rather stupid to keep posting because no one reads anyway.

I really havent been up to much. Just working basically. Tryin hard to make commission but so far it hasnt happend yet. Oh I bought a new car and im basically broke because of it. I love it though. Its hot. 2006 Pontiac G6 GTP. I just wish my job paid a little more because after insurance and a car payment, i basically have enough money to pay for my 2 credit cards. Student loans are coming and I think dad is going to have to help me pay those back because I'm not going to have it. Unless a miracle arises. But we'll see.

Steve got a job! A good one too. Im so excited for him. He deserves it. He will be getting benefits and everything after 60 days. Im so proud of him. And his bos said that if he goes and gets his CDL license and his pa inspection license he will be making more money. This could be it his calling and it helps me breathe a sigh of relief because I know hes the one, I know that if he can keep this job we can have a future together and nothing makes me more happy than that feeling. I love him with all my heart and I would like to shout it so loud that the world could hear.

I have been feeling a little down about myself lately. I feel like im not pretty enough. I feel fat and disgusting and im not sure why. Maybe its because my pants are getting tighter than they used to be. its because all i do is sit on my ass at work. Adam and i go on like 15 min walks everyday but i guess thats not enough.

My 21st bday is one week from today. im gettin excited. i just hope i dont puke,

well, im talkin to my baby, im gonna go. i'll try to update soon.

Until Next Time

~*Diddy*~

The time of my life

Hello folks. Its been awhile I know...but im working a shit ton and barely have time to breathe let alone post on here. But here I am.

Since my last post I attended the American Idols Live tour with my best friend mitchell. It was a pretty fun day. we met at target in the morning, picked up the rental car...which was...drum roll please...a cadillac cts. we were pimpin it out on the way to pittsburgh thats for sure. after picking up the rental we headed for pittsburgh and went to the monroeville mall. i bought a pair of jeans and an abercrombie shirt and mitch bought a pair of sunglasses that he later decided he didnt like. haha. after spending most of the day at the mall we headed for the mellon arena. we ran into some people we knew and hung out with them in line. Keep in mind i was going into this show not knowing what to expect seeing as how i never watched a show this season. but i must say the show was fantastic. David cook blew my mind. im now a fan. hes pretty much amazing and i just want to thank mitchell for inviting me. i had a blast! im not real good with the whole recap thing so if you want a play by play you may want to check out his blog. its linked on the side of my site. :)

I bought a laptop today. Its a sony vaio. i love it :) i feel i got a decent deal on it so we'll see lol. im sorry this is short but im sleepy and steve is here ;) we're gonna go chill. Catch you all soon!

until next time
~*Diddy*~

Well Hello Readers...the very few that there are.
Im finally back to write. Im horrible with updating this thing and for that I am sorry. I promise i'll try to come back more often.

In my last entry I mentioned a job interview with Atlantic Broadband. Well, I got the job. I started on June 10th. June 9th was my last day at Target and I cried like a baby. Literally. It was sad but I go in to visit alot. And I still talk to my bestest Mitchell ona regular basis. Anyway, I just finished up training at ABB and I start on the phones on my own tomorrow and im pretty scared about it. The job is ok. Alot of the people are awesome and i can tell I'm going to make some new friends there. Also, The pay checks are damn good compared to what I was getting at target. Like triple the amount which rox my world.

Im looking for a new car. Only problem is, my insurance is going to be sky high. oh well guess thats wat i get. lol

well im sorry this is short but today is my last saturday off and i am going to go find something to do. big mouth subs ruined my day by calling steve into work so now i dont have anything to do. its lame. I wanted to go to community days tonite and now i doubt im gonna be able to go. its stupid. I can never go when i want. i wanted to go the past 2 years and couldnt cuz i had to work. bull shit.

im out. leave comments please.

Now that its all said and done...

Well, yes folks...ive done it. I've graduated penn highlands community college with an associates degree...with honors none the less. go me. Graduation was cool. My best friends and my family were there to cheer me on. Thank you to Mitchell, Chris, Steve, my fam...and the big angry midget matthew for showing up. it means alot to me that you all came. The party afterward was fun too. everyone that i wanted to come showed up did, well with exception of mitch. But it made my nite. So now what is in store for diddy? Well folks, the job search is on.

Speaking of job search, I had an interview with atlantic broadband yesterday. It seemed to go well and I think i may get the job. The only downside to that being, its second shift which means i work from 2:30-11 thursday-monday. but its full time, benefits, and good cash flow. so i'll take what i can get and i'll just have to rearrange my social scheduel. wish me luck.

other than that, nothing much is happening. im trying to get more hours at the bullseye..but im not gonna hold my breath. i guess thats all i have for you today. i just kind of had a brain fart and everything i was going to say has left, so i'm gonna go. lol. have a good day and i'll try to write soon.

until we meet again,
~*Diddy*~

Comin to an End...

Well, about 2 weeks of classes to go and this chapter of my college career has ended. Whether I decide to return to school or the story ends here...well you're just going to have to wait and see. lol. Im not even sure of that myself yet.

I have a job interview Thursday morning at 10:30am. Its for Hoss's corporate office as a receptionist. It's only wednesdays and covering shifts for right now, but it could turn permanant. Atleast it will get my foot in the door and it will get me more work experience. I'm a little nervous though. I hope I dont choke on my words. Also Thursday, Ive been invited to go to the scholars awards ceremony. I guess its where they pick the top academic achiever in each program and they get an award...and I just so happen to be getting the award in my program. GO ME! lol. So that might be interesting, and if it isnt, well its getting me out of english class. who wants to talk about hamlet anyway? lol.

ok randomness...YAY!
1. Mario Kart Wii is the greatest game ever invented. I'm obsessed with it. I sit there and cuss at the screen for hours. Those little bastards race dirty! lol. So if you have a wii, I suggest you go buy yourself a copy. Thats right, stop reading right now and go get the damn game! lol.

2. Heath Ledger will always be gorgeous even tho hes gone now. I watched 10 Things I hate about you the other day. That movie gets me every time. His accent....wholy shit. lol.

3. Protein bars taste like shit. Not that I know what shit tastes like or anything but yea I tried some blueberry ones and i had one and gave the rest to my dad. they were pretty gross. and not only gross going down, but they left a gross after taste and they made my mountain dew taste like....gross. lol.

well im out of things for the day. Sorry if i bored you out of your mind once again. More to come soon. So leave feedback so I know people care!

until next time...

~*Diddy*~

finally looking up

Well, Im glad to say things are slowly starting to work themselves out. With exception of the job hunt situation anyway. lol. but we will save that for another day.

Chris and Heidi are finally talking to me again! and I couldnt be more glad. We all hung out last night and went bowling and Id have to say it was one of the best times ive had in a long ass time. Alcohol was deffinately involved and we never got home till 5am. lol. but it was just so much fun and im glad things werent weird. I deffinately missed them and im looking forward to us all being able to hang out again. It was killing me not hanging out with them.

Today was the MS walk in hollidaysburg. I raised $75 dollars for it, so to everyone who dontated, THANK YOU! I raised enough that i got an MS Walk tshirt. So that is pretty cool. I was pretty proud of myself. I walked the entire 5 miles on 4 hours of sleep, and HUNGOVER! lol. i woke up this morning feeling the need to barf, instead i almost shit my pants. lol. and i had the biggest headache ever, but i sucked it up and walked. In the pouring rain none the less and as result im more than likely going to get sick. lol. but hell it was worth every second. it was so much fun. :)

I started going to the gym, and besides the fact that my stomach seems to be getting fat instead of flat cuz ive been eating non stop, i feel pretty good about my self now. Working out leaves me feeling accomplished and regenerized for some reason. so im hoping if i keep at it i can shed a few of the fat pounds and look good. :)

well im completely exhausted. so im gonna go wait for steve to call and tell me hes home ok, then its bedtime. Catch you all later.

until we meet again,
~*Diddy*~